As you guys noticed my gallery no longer has a lot of the art in it anymore because I decided I am moving to a new account. The account I'm on now shall only be used when I'm in the mood for laughs of feel like pointing out some things. Basically what I'm saying is this account shall no longer have any importance than it once had. I say this because I'm tired of being talked about, tired of the bullying tactics, tired of being called things I'm not and I'm tired of apologizing when I accidentally screwed up or did not mean to come across as offensive or mean.
Why am I moving to a new account? Because I'm tired of my account name being used in vain and being laughed about. To the bullies I say congratulations you got what you want, another discouraged artist. I will admit when I first joined deviantart, yes, I was a jerk and I had a problem with people with different opinions than mines, but over time I started changing, tried to be tolerable of differences, and even tried to get some counseling, but all that seem to of been a waste. I screwed up on many occasions and I can't tell everyone how sorry I am, but it seems as if it's too late. However, for the New Year I want to restart and before I restart I need to inform some things.
Yes, I have a temper problem and I have always knew that, but so many times I try to suppress it. Yes, I have drawn people OCs because I like them and simply just wanted to fit in. To actually feel apart of something, but the artists who found out I drew their characters without their royal permission said they were offended because I didn't asked. I'm confused by this because why would you join a website and expect people to always ask to draw your OC, like every second when they have an inspiring thought about your OC? I understand that you're concerned, but when your OC gets popular enough it will get people's attention and, yes, they're going to draw it. But if you can't handle that, it's fine, because in the end it was my fault for being insensitive and not thinking things through. When I get this new account I shall no longer draw anyone's OC unless they are a friend.
Moving on, yes, Parroa unfortunately fits the gender norms and quite honestly I like her that way. I don't understand why gender norms or characters who accidentally fit those gender norms are now considered sexist especially when it comes to a female characters. And who are the only ones who throw the sexist card every time when they see something getting more attention than them or making people smile or simply out of the deepest corner of their heart just plain don't like it? Low self-esteem females and feminists and I was one of them until I realized that I shouldn't always use that towards innocent artists who are simply doing their hobby.
So is humanity now going to reverse and hurt anyone who accidentally fit those gender norms? Because if we are then as a society we fail to show respect and I will not be surprised when things turn out like this---> cdn.obsidianportal.com/assets/…. And sometimes there is would been no harm in offering advice and if your advice got rejected it wouldn't of hurt to move on with your day instead of getting upset and posting people's business on another website, such as tumblr. I tried to work on other characters such as Scraz (who was a robot who was a boy who looked like a girl which was really breaking gender norms), and GenG3R really hard trying to bring them out more, but Parroa turned out to got more people's attention, so I saw no harm in drawing her more than others. And I drew her the way people seemed to of liked her. Am I discouraged from drawing this character? No, I will keep drawing her in my new account. Does she need improvement now that I noticed I left some holes in and did not think over everything. Yes, but bullying people into doing it should never be the answer. I use to do the same thing and got pushed back and now I see how I made others feel, except like the fragile girl I am unfortunately I can't handle it.
To the good people expecting gifts, roleplays, conversations or basically anything, I apologize, but I have to stay away from deviantart for awhile because the people I've encountered don't know how to handle things in a civil way and had pushed me out.
When I told certain people in my life that I joined deviantart I was warned that such a mess was going to come when I get the slightest attention or share the slightest thought or opinion. I didn't think it was possible, but now I see why. However I think it was my fault and there's nothing much left to say.
To finish this off, I will be taking a long break from deviantart and after taking that long break I will inform close friends of my new account. I wish I can specifically tell people when I'll be coming back, but I can't. I'm just tired of dealing with trashy people even when I apologize for my actions. I'm tired of being accused of things that I'm not.
To the people who were nice to me and listened to me as I listened to them thank you for showing that deviantart is not completely a black abyss. To the bullies and snob artists I leave this---> www.youtube.com/watch?v=ORsFFj… . I think the song pretty much tells you everything. Oh and or those of you wondering about my tumblr account I'll be there and prefer to be contact through fanmail.
One more thing, people who do these things simply to make the other miserable and keep thinking you're trying to teach them a lesson are really no better. I use to be so confused on why deviantart was starting to get a bad reputation and now I see why. I promise the next time around I will not be making that mistake again and allow such people to walk all over me. If the same people somehow find my new account just know I will not acknowledge you and depending on your actions do not be surprised if you get blocked or made a fool of by your own actions.
Really, during the three years on deviantart all I wanted was to fit in and felt important for once in my life, but I guess I'm not allowed to have that. If people find this new account do not be surprised if I become anti-social. Deviantart should be a place where you can be happy with whatever you draw and actually look forward to maybe even creating a career for yourself. It's make me wonder should deviantart have more regulations and tighter rules.
Anyway, for now, goodbye and I wish everyone to have a safe, happy Christmas. For a little bit I'll try to socialize with everyone before I move on with my day and some days I will stop by and drop comments on artist's pictures and that will be about it. To put it simply, I won't be too active up here on DA for awhile.